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mental illness and milestones (the big 3-0!)

mental illness and milestones (the big 3-0!)

Today… I turn 30! Over the past few days, people have reminded me that celebrating another birthday is a gift compared to the alternative. As I sit here, I know that to be true, but it’s also difficult to face the

reconciling the experience of holding hope and sadness as a caregiver

reconciling the experience of holding hope and sadness as a caregiver

As a carer, I’m kind of impressed with myself right now (in my own humble opinion). I’ve been able to pick up on the therapeutic lingo in the eating disorder recovery world and have been trying to apply some of

moving away from self-blame during a lapse

moving away from self-blame during a lapse

“That dinner was huge. It was much bigger than we had in day” “I haven’t been meeting all of my exchanges” “It makes me feel good so I don’t feel as depressed and anxious…” OJ’s words are familiar, but I

CJ: what i want you to know but my ED does not

CJ: what i want you to know but my ED does not

I’ve always thought of my eating disorder as a very personal thing. There were years where I was in my eating disorder and no one really knew. Because of this, many people have told me (and in some ways, I

the NEDA conference, pop tarts, oreos, and recovery

the NEDA conference, pop tarts, oreos, and recovery

The first part of my journal entry from September 22, 2016, a mere 19 days after leaving residential reads: “Overall today felt hard. That’s okay though. I’m okay. There are hard days. There always will be, and I’ve gotten through