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eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

Gaslighting refers to when someone – intentionally or not- manipulates your perceptions of reality. It’s a horrific form of emotional and psychological abuse and is overlooked because gaslighting is often done by people we know, trust, and love. The internal

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

A large part of recovery is finding an identity outside of the eating disorder. In part, figuring this out has been searching for what I’m truly interested in when it comes to a career, as my eating disorder has clouded my

ambivalence: the cost of bargaining in eating disorder recovery

ambivalence: the cost of bargaining in eating disorder recovery

The meaning of the word “bargain” is not typically known for having an emotional charge, except for perhaps the subtle (or not always so subtle) glee after finding that awesome $3.00 sweater at the bottom of a bin at Goodwill.

musings on fear vs. self-fulfilling prophecies in eating disorder recovery

musings on fear vs. self-fulfilling prophecies in eating disorder recovery

Like many people with eating disorders, I focus a lot on numbers and create irrational associations with what might happen to me if I reach a certain weight. At this point in recovery, I’m still experiencing disproportionate sensations of fullness,

triggers, tryptophan, tranquility: thanksgiving dinner with an eating disorder

triggers, tryptophan, tranquility: thanksgiving dinner with an eating disorder

It’s now been 2 weeks since our country elected the most racist, xenophobic, transphobic, Islamophobic, homophobic, anti-semitic ableist, and I still feel heavy with grief, sadness, and fear. This is a complicated time, to say the least; a time that