eating disorder recovery

articulating truths in recovery without sounding like a contradiction

articulating truths in recovery without sounding like a contradiction

I hate having the desire to vacate my body. I strive to be in something that resembles a deep communion with my body and physical self. At times this feels impossible, but recently I’ve had glimpses of that freedom. Weight

how fear of indulgence impacts eating disorder recovery 

how fear of indulgence impacts eating disorder recovery 

Recently I find myself saying that a certain food or combination of foods is “scary” because it feels “indulgent”, as if indulging in something is akin to committing an act of sin.  Thanks to a toxic and pervasive diet culture,

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

Measuring and comparing time always feels strange. It feels like I’ve been home for a long time, but I’ve only been home for about three weeks, about a quarter of the time I spent in residential treatment. I appreciate the

eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

Gaslighting refers to when someone – intentionally or not- manipulates your perceptions of reality. It’s a horrific form of emotional and psychological abuse and is overlooked because gaslighting is often done by people we know, trust, and love. The internal

When gender dysphoria compounds body dysmorphia: body image, anorexia, and gender identity.

When gender dysphoria compounds body dysmorphia: body image, anorexia, and gender identity.

I’m tired. I’m tired of hearing the eating disorder voice berate me: “you can’t, you can’t, you must, you shouldn’t, you did, now you will” rattle in my brain on repeat. I’m tired of hearing it say, “You take up