acceptance

mental illness and milestones (the big 3-0!)

mental illness and milestones (the big 3-0!)

Today… I turn 30! Over the past few days, people have reminded me that celebrating another birthday is a gift compared to the alternative. As I sit here, I know that to be true, but it’s also difficult to face the

ambivalence: the cost of bargaining in eating disorder recovery

ambivalence: the cost of bargaining in eating disorder recovery

The meaning of the word “bargain” is not typically known for having an emotional charge, except for perhaps the subtle (or not always so subtle) glee after finding that awesome $3.00 sweater at the bottom of a bin at Goodwill.

musings on fear vs. self-fulfilling prophecies in eating disorder recovery

musings on fear vs. self-fulfilling prophecies in eating disorder recovery

Like many people with eating disorders, I focus a lot on numbers and create irrational associations with what might happen to me if I reach a certain weight. At this point in recovery, I’m still experiencing disproportionate sensations of fullness,

triggers, tryptophan, tranquility: thanksgiving dinner with an eating disorder

triggers, tryptophan, tranquility: thanksgiving dinner with an eating disorder

It’s now been 2 weeks since our country elected the most racist, xenophobic, transphobic, Islamophobic, homophobic, anti-semitic ableist, and I still feel heavy with grief, sadness, and fear. This is a complicated time, to say the least; a time that

Embrace the Documentary

Embrace the Documentary

Last Monday night, CJ and I went to the highly anticipated premiere of the U.S. screening for the Embrace documentary. Embrace is a film that explores issues of body image as a global epidemic that is influenced by our dangerous