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how fear of indulgence impacts eating disorder recovery 

how fear of indulgence impacts eating disorder recovery 

Recently I find myself saying that a certain food or combination of foods is “scary” because it feels “indulgent”, as if indulging in something is akin to committing an act of sin.  Thanks to a toxic and pervasive diet culture,

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

Measuring and comparing time always feels strange. It feels like I’ve been home for a long time, but I’ve only been home for about three weeks, about a quarter of the time I spent in residential treatment. I appreciate the

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

A large part of recovery is finding an identity outside of the eating disorder. In part, figuring this out has been searching for what I’m truly interested in when it comes to a career, as my eating disorder has clouded my

math sucks. and recovery feels asymptotic.

math sucks. and recovery feels asymptotic.

The reality of the situation is that it’s tough. The kind of tough that feels indefinable, yet I’m no stranger to its heaviness. The tough that feels too much. I feel too much. Shortly after I wrote about my struggle

relentless health anxiety in eating disorder recovery: a paradox

relentless health anxiety in eating disorder recovery: a paradox

There’s a terrible irony in wanting and expecting more from lessening. In the case of my eating disorder, making myself smaller to lessen my presence and decrease the amount of space I occupied, disguised itself as a solution to avoid