Author: OJ

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

great expectations: you’re bringing me down in recovery

Measuring and comparing time always feels strange. It feels like I’ve been home for a long time, but I’ve only been home for about three weeks, about a quarter of the time I spent in residential treatment. I appreciate the

eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

eating disorders: the ultimate gaslighter

Gaslighting refers to when someone – intentionally or not- manipulates your perceptions of reality. It’s a horrific form of emotional and psychological abuse and is overlooked because gaslighting is often done by people we know, trust, and love. The internal

When gender dysphoria compounds body dysmorphia: body image, anorexia, and gender identity.

When gender dysphoria compounds body dysmorphia: body image, anorexia, and gender identity.

I’m tired. I’m tired of hearing the eating disorder voice berate me: “you can’t, you can’t, you must, you shouldn’t, you did, now you will” rattle in my brain on repeat. I’m tired of hearing it say, “You take up

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

the subtle art of letting go: careers, passions, and eating disorders.

A large part of recovery is finding an identity outside of the eating disorder. In part, figuring this out has been searching for what I’m truly interested in when it comes to a career, as my eating disorder has clouded my

math sucks. and recovery feels asymptotic.

math sucks. and recovery feels asymptotic.

The reality of the situation is that it’s tough. The kind of tough that feels indefinable, yet I’m no stranger to its heaviness. The tough that feels too much. I feel too much. Shortly after I wrote about my struggle